Smiles

I climb the stairs,
I go to bed.
I try to sleep
but I cry instead.
I've lost you though I never really had you.

I hear my heart
beat deep inside
and yet I know
today I died.
I played the fool, I thought I had to.

In tender dreams
you always knew
but when awake,
I feared telling you.
I loved you but it always seemed in vain.

Too late I learned
of your love for me
'cause you're to wed,
and start a family.
And I'm only holding lonesome, once again.

How could one man be so blind,
to try and run his heart with his mind?
I can lock away my love and close the door
but smiles won't come easy, anymore.

I'll be alright,
my heart will mend.
A perfect love's
had a perfect end.
And they say all love wounds heal in time.

But I'll walk alone
'till I understand
what bitter fate
made this lonely man
And I'll fill my empty soul with empty rhymes.

How could one man be so blind,
to try and run his heart with his mind?
I can lock away my love and close the door
but smiles won't come easy, anymore.